| Sunday, February 19, 2006 LeavingI've started another blog and will be leaving this one behind. It seems that knowing that some family members read my blog makes it hard for me to write. I start to think of things to say, and all of the baggage I have with a certain person raises it's ugly head and makes it impossible for me to open Motime. I was going to write a whole post dedicated to the person in question, but it would be an exercise in futility. You all don't care, and frankly neither does the person it would be addressed to. However, I still want and need to write and so I've decided to start afresh. If you are one of my two faithful readers, or if you have just come accross this blog and you want to know how to find me, please send me an e-mail. I will gladly reroute you to the new blog. (You'll be glad to know that I post there WAY more often!) I'll leave you with one last picture.
posted by kikadesa at 22:30 | link | comments (4) Wednesday, January 18, 2006 The lurker delurksI've spent much of the last week or so outing myself on blogs I read. Today I realized that I hadn't posted anything new in a long while, thus making anyone coming by think that I was a poor soul who spends more time reading blogs rather than writing one! I admit it, your lives fescinate me a lot more than mine! lol What can I tell you? Would you like to know about 'the fever that won't quit'? No not mine, the kid's, so I have to stay home from work. About her first ear infection? Her wheezing? (She'll be ok, hopefully the new antibiotics will kick in quickly and she'll feel better soon.) Would you like to know that I actually kind of like it (she's not miserable, I'm not a monster...) because for once, the kid who loves EVERYONE actually just wants to cuddle with mommy? How she turned 8 months yesterday, and I really don't know what happened to the last 8 months? I held a friend's new baby boy last week. Clara is THREE times his size!!! How I'm sick to death of my job? I can't wait for Mark to find the job of his dreams and to be done with school, so that I can go out and find a job that I don't feel is a waste of time. If that hypothetical job were to be part time so I could spend more quality time with my baby, then great! I suspect that the few people who read this blog on a semi regular basis do so to get some updates on the muchkin, so here are a few pictures for your viewing pleasure! See you soon, and if you are a lurker, come on out and say hi! You called?
I shall give you a big slobbery kiss
Superstar! (aka, this cousin of mine, she's fun to be with!)
Look at my super new hat!
posted by kikadesa at 20:55 | link | comments Thursday, December 08, 2005 The curse of the lurkerIt would seem that the curse of the lurker is to have lurkers on her blog.... I'm learning slowly to out myself, maybe some day my two readers will too. Discovering Tracksy.com was both a blessing and a curse. Yay some people read me! Boo most of them are refered from Web Searches... wow some of the stuff people read that leads them here! Hi stray visitors! Things are well here. We are gearing up the big annual treck to NJ. Kind of scared about the flight, but I have faith in Clara, and I know that it will be the first time she sleeps through. I'm sure it will be the last for months, and I won't be able to enjoy it because I'll be terrified I'm going to drop her, but at least I'll save tons of money as I won't have to bribe my fellow passengers with oodles of liquor. Thank goodness for small mercies. posted by kikadesa at 21:45 | link | comments (2) Thursday, December 01, 2005 Much sadnessBenoit D. Born 11/14/05 Died 11/30/05. Suspected SIDS. My heart breaks for my friend and her loss. He is survived by both of his parents and his older sister. There's really nothing else to say. I am consumed by sadness for them and the weeks head. posted by kikadesa at 14:05 | link | comments (2) Tuesday, November 22, 2005 Quick post on sharingIt's a good thing Clara loves her daycare.... She brought us home a cute little rash! She's fine, but I'm a right mess! Better bring some fancy pants for Thanksgiving dinner! In other news our munchkin is 6 months old! She's getting such a personnality. She loves to play peek-a-boo. She even tries to do it herself! She's starting to enjoy her cereal and baby food. She rolls both ways, and I think she's starting to move, although yesterday she was going more backwards than forwards. But her sitting is going great! Here are a few gratuitus pictures that you don't have to click to see! (as scroll down for a carrot recipe for Thanksgiving! Happy Thanksgiving to all of you, regulars, lurkers and poor people who end up here after searches! (Hey I love you guys! You make up 80% of my readership!)
Carrot Souffle PUDDING INGREDIENTS: 2 lbs fresh carrots boiled until soft (can use baby carrots) 6 eggs 2/3 cup sugar 6 TBSPs matzo meal 2 TSP vanilla extract 2 sticks melted unsalted butter Dash of Nutmeg
TOPPING INGREDIENTS: 12 TBSPs dark brown sugar 8 TBSPs melted butter 2 cups chopped walnuts
To make the pudding. Put cooked carrots and eggs into food processor and puree. Add the rest of ingredients. Process until smooth.
Bake in greased 9”x13” pyrex pan at 350°F for 40 minutes.
Mix the topping ingredients together. Put the topping mixture over top of baked soufflé. Bake another 5 to 10 minutes.
You can serve after cooled for 20 minutes or reheat the next day in the microwave. posted by kikadesa at 08:10 | link | comments Monday, November 14, 2005 ThanksgivingEven though sometimes I get frustrated with my life, most often I am overwhelmed with a deep feeling of satisfaction. It's amazing to think that I could go from troubled teen to sedate contented wife and mother. I've always known that I was meant to be a mother. I am thankful everyday that it happened so easily. Even if it hadn't I know that I would, one day or another, been a mom. It's just who I'm meant to be. I won't be so trite as to say that she is my life etc.. But she is a wonderful amazing little person who makes it all worthwhile. I go to bed at night filled with this amazing sense of contentment. Ok enough mushyness. Must be the oatmeal chocolate chip cookies talking. Oh. Ps. Word to the wise. When using a humidifier in the baby's room, make sure to check that the water is not condensing on the ceiling... apparently babies don't like being woken up in the middle of the night with man made 'rain' falling on their face! Lol. Now that we have figured that out Clara has slept through the night for two nights in a row! Oh I love pictures!
Oh look at the moose!
You looking at me??
posted by kikadesa at 21:46 | link | comments (1) Wednesday, November 02, 2005 Lobster in a PotGood thing we are jewish... or we would have eaten her all up!
We handed out lots of candy. Clara had a blast seeing all the trick-or-treaters. I really wanted to say something else... but, hey, 5000 interuptions blanked my mind.... More important stuff soon! posted by kikadesa at 16:19 | link | comments (3) Sunday, October 23, 2005 Working mom angstI feel such mixted feelings about being a working mom. A part of me can't fathom not working at least part-time. I love Clara more than anything, but right now her conversation skills are somewhat lacking. At the same time I feel such sadness about all of the things that I can't do with her because she is only with us two days a week. The weekends are so packed with the million things we haven't had a chance to do during the week. There's no time to just "be". Our weekly schedule is insane to say the least! I wake up at 7:15. Shower and get ready, pump, transfer the milk to the bottle for the fridge, place the pump parts in a ziplock bag in the fridge and get Clara's things together. During this time Mark has gotten Clara up, changed her and dressed her, and fed her if she's hungry. I place her in her car seat and bundle her into the car. By now it's almost 9am. (The pumping is what takes up much of that time.) I drop Clara of at daycare. I take a few minutes to tell her daycare providers how she's doing and how her night was, say goodbye (often to a sleeping child) and rush off to work. At 5:15pm I rush out of work and dash back to daycare. I spend 10 minutes chatting with the assistants, trying to get a glipse into Clara's day. Then it's off we go again. Clara is usually asleep before we hit the end of the street. If I'm not beat we head to the grocery store to pick up dinner. (If I'm too tired we go ourt or order in.) I pump while she naps or plays. Clara is usually awake by 6:15/6:30 and she sits in the kitchen with me while I make dinner. She ususally goes to bed around 7:30 or 8 just before we sit down for dinner. Then we eat, do the dishes and clean up. After that I pump some more, get everything ready for the next day and go to bed. I wish Clara and I could take daily walks. I wish we could play together. I wish I could get her on a good schedule and work on her taking longer naps. I wish we could go to the park and to baby classes together. I wish I could teach her baby sign language. I wish I could make her baby food. Just so many things I feel that we are both missing out on... it really breaks my heart. I've always been such an overachiever when it comes to things I enjoy doing. Now I feel like I'm doing everything half-assed. I can't get into my work and I feel like I'm shortchanging Clara. It's just damn frustrating.
posted by kikadesa at 14:24 | link | comments (1) Tuesday, October 18, 2005 Baby is 5 months old!Wow... no clue how that happened! Almost half a year already. It's true what they say... boy does it go fast! Clara rolls over (when she wants...), she's starting to sit up, and she really wants to scoot... but she hasn't quite figured out that when she lifts both her arms and feet in the air when she's on her belly all she can do it roll around. Clara is a delightful child. She smiles ALL the time. She has a fantastic big belly laugh, and she uses it a lot! She's a really silly girl, she loves it when we are goofy.
Every day Clara seems to learn something new. She seems to be more and more alert and interested in the world. The other day she discovered that if she pulled the ears of her chime bunny (has chimes in its belly) it would make noise. It was so fun to see her get so excited about it. She LOVES her Jumperoo. She can jump in it for hours. Earlier she was so tired, but she wouldn't stop! Jump jump jump yawn jump jump jump. I finally took her out and put her in her crib. She went right to sleep.
She's been sleeping in her own crib for a few weeks now. It was harder for me to transition her than it was for her. I admit to having cried a little tear. Even though her room is just down the hall we put in a video monitor. It's working wonders for my peace of mind. She does sleep pretty well in her crib I have to say. She's still wakes up, but she no longer eats at night. We've been going in to give her her pacifier, but last night we decided to pull the plug. (hihi) We are going to go in and say shhh and rock her a little, but no more pacifier in the middle of the night. Hopefully that will limit the trips to her room. We'll give it a few days, see how it goes. I can't really complain. Even though we have to go to her a few times a night, she does sleep for 10 to 12 hours! We've tried cereal a few times, and she's warming up to it, but she's still not a huge fan. Much prefers her milk! (formula and breastmilk indiscrimately!)
She loves her daycare. And I'm happy with the place as well. However I've still negotiated to work from home on Mondays and Clara comes to work with me on Fridays. I had negotiated a much better deal (no work Mondays, at home Wednesdays and Clara at work on Fridays) but when I told the daycare director she told me that they don't do part-time and it didn't make sense financially do put her there part time, pay full time and get paid less! Plus I had a niggling doubt that I was going to have to do the same amount of work in fewer hours for less pay... I start the new schedule next week. I think it's going to make a huge differnce. It doesn't seem like much, but since we teach in Sunday School there's only one day a week we can take it easy in the morning. Having two is going to be great! Oh... side note. Clara's going to be a lobster for Halloween!
posted by kikadesa at 11:58 | link | comments (2) Tuesday, August 30, 2005 Watch Clara grow!http://www.flickr.com/photos/99405860@N00/sets/855063/show/ Week by week she's gone from a skinny little thing to a 3 month old in 6 month clothing! posted by kikadesa at 22:12 | link | comments (2) |
thanks to squidfingers for background pattern
